It's a Grand Old Life*

My attitude lately has not been great. I have been feeling very overwhelmed with schoolwork, house, kids, kids' appointments, meal prep, life, etc., etc., etc. I have been really whiny and feeling the need to tell everyone how busy I am. Yeah, like everyone else isn't. And I've been stomping around the world feeling very put-upon and babyish and petulant. Most especially to Tim and the boys, since they live here, I own them, and they probably won't leave me just yet. But I shouldn't push it.

Anyway, I was praying about this, and trying to use "The Power of Positive Thinking" and getting rid of all my negative garbage, and here's what I've come up with: I have a great husband who is willing to let me take off during the busiest time of every weeknight so I can take required courses to get my nursing degree. He feeds the kids, takes all three to baseball practice, waters the garden, cleans the dishes. You get the picture. And I'm just mean to him.

I get to learn really cool things (even though I'm kinda done with the coolness of Anatomy) and all I have to do is make dinner to put in the crockpot so it's done when the guys wanna eat. Waaah.

I always hear people talking about God speaking to them in prayer. It's funny, but I always hear my mom's voice. As in, "It seems to me like some little girl could be appreciative about the good stuff she has." Or, "At least you don't have to go to school, work, and raise your kids on your own, like other people in your classes."

So, as I sat on the deck today, studying in the sunshine, I decided to count my blessings instead of my chores. Number one: sitting on the deck studying in the sunshine while my husband works to provide for all of us.

Number two: sitting right next to a big lilac bush that is stinkin' up my whole yard like Heaven.

Number three: Having a sweet bunch of little boys who need and want me even when I'm a raving shrew.

*The title of this post is a quote of my mom's: "It's a grand old life if you don't weaken."

I miss her.